Virgola

“How do you keep your edge, sir? Because I watch you and you’ve been doing this a long time and you’re clean. You’re focused, you’re on the job, nothing gets to you, and the thing is sir I was like that. Until I got here. Until I actually started doing this job and now everything is… is fuzzy… no see sir, this is the point. Because I can’t tell you what happened in that room. I can’t tell you. And before, I could have. No guilt, no loyalties, no problem. Before, before I wouldn’t have even been in that room. I wouldn’t have gotten involved. I would have never frozen in surgery. And I would have told him what I thought he should do. I had an edge, sir. I had an edge and I’ve lost it. And I need it. I need it back. So, if you could just tell me, how you keep yours, and how not to be affected. I know I could be a great surgeon. So if you could just give me the answers I would really appreciate it.”

(Source: kurtana)